Lately, my path has been gnarly and shrouded in clouds, and I wondered if I should write you from a place of confusion. Although my practice keeps me balanced, somewhat focused, mostly grounded and feeling satisfied with my life, I was trying to make a major life decision, and it seemed out of reach. As I struggled not to distract myself too much with feel-good behaviors like dancing and walking in nature, or numbing-out behaviors like binging on chocolate, feelings of loss, grief and confusion revealed themselves.
So, who am I to suggest a practice for clear-seeing, when a few days ago my go to’s like meditating, praying, and journaling didn’t shine a light through my perplexity? It was already Saturday evening on the East Coast, but I needed a trusted human to speak to. Whose plans would I be interrupting? My brother has a forgiving nature, so I called him. On his way out for the evening with his beloved, they were both on speaker phone. He talked me through the practicalities of the decision, and she reflected back the feelings about the decision I had shared with them when I visited in May. Despite my conflicted feelings, clarity arose.
For Now, Gratitude
In my next blog, I’ll share a little more about this decision and why it was so hard. For now, let me share my gratitude for having humans in my life with whom I can talk about hard things. Being vulnerable and honest about my confusion with trusted others gave me the strength to make a difficult decision.
Yes, we need those walks in nature, our spiritual practice, and the passions that bring us joy—like dancing, exercising, poetry, making art—anything that opens the portal to a flow state of mind. But truly, what we need most is each other. We need love reflected back to us, even as we allow love to expand our hearts.
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