Getting Curious About Our Inner Critic
We all have an inner voice that constantly chatters in our minds, evaluating our actions, appearances, decisions -- sometimes making us feel unlovable or not good enough. My young Inner Critic was linked to feelings of shame, and as a teen this part named me Shamey-Amy! For most of us, the IC manifests as a harsh and judgmental force, undermining our self-esteem and hindering personal growth. Mark Twain said, “If we talked to our children the way we talk to ourselves, we’d be arrested for child abuse.” As that shamed-based being, I did what I knew to do -- I smiled nervously, and tried to keep my cool and radiate confidence, and I know you know: inwardly there she [...]
Summer is Now – Say Yes!
Summer is Now! Dear Ones, As I write, I am running last minute errands and readying to depart the Southwest. Summer is NOW and... ROADTRIP! Though I'll miss my Arizona friends, soon I will cross our beautiful country again, camping and teaching and visiting new states... I am delighted with the possibility of new experiences, and nervous about crossing the midwest during peak tornado season. Yes, I take my practices with me; my favorite chants clear the way to meditation and prayer, and they prepare my days for wherever I find myself. Here's one for you to enjoy - short and simple: "the essence of summer". This bhavana meditation, incorporates sound and easy movement with garuda mudra. See if [...]
I Trust in Wildflowers
This quote comes from the book I just finished called The Scalpel and the Soul: Encounters with Surgery, the Supernatural and the Healing Power of Hope, by Allan Hamilton, a neurosurgeon. I read this book because my dear friend’s daughter, who is also a friend, has been diagnosed with brain cancer and has lost much of her ability to function. Accompanying her on this journey has given her beloved family and friends the joy of her presence, for she is a being who radiates divine compassion. The poet and essayist Ross Gay says it best: “Sorrow and delight walk hand in hand, always.” This young woman's beloveds are sorrowful about what is happening to her, but, as she expresses to them, when [...]
Stepping Back for Ease. A Gift.
Stepping Back for Ease. A Gift. The holidays can be amazing and complicated; jubilant and crazy-making; overstimulating and lonely all at once. Even when we're joyful, there’s the added stress of finding and paying for gifts, and often many preparations. For some of us it might mean attending holiday events with difficult family members. For others of us, whose family circumstances have changed, it might mean spending more time than we wish alone. This year, I can check the box on all three of these categories! A nearly 50-year spiritual practice of yoga and meditation has not immunized me from stress, grief, disappointment or betrayal. But I have learned a few strategies over the years. I know that if I can [...]
Loss in a time of Thanksgiving
Loss in a time of Thanksgiving. 💔 When life upends our plans, and the love and companionship we’ve cherished explodes into a toxic cloud, or we face some other inconsolable loss, there are two options: We can numb out and put one foot in front of the other. Or we can stay present and put one foot in front of the other. Either way, we keep going. Choice number one constricts the heart, literally putting us at risk for heart attack and immune system dysregulation. The second choice risks us burdening our friends with TMI, blubbering at inconvenient moments, and spending too much time in bed. Having spent way too many years unconsciously tamping down my feelings (a childhood habit [...]
Where is Home?
Where is home? This summer was unforgettable - from the desert Southwest, to battlefields and southern mists, to the great Atlantic shore. It's been a while and I covered a lot of ground cross country! I camped along a river, visited family, tasted regional treats, and made wonderful memories. Do you ever feel that way after a temporary move or while traveling? Sometimes I don’t remember if the nightstand is to the right or left. And the bathroom…where is that? Down the hall? In the room? It only takes a few moments to orient myself to my current location and time zone, but in those seconds, if I let go of trying to figure anything out, I can truly know where [...]
Perfection, Acceptance, and Dogs :)
Perfection, Acceptance, and Dogs :) We would love to be as accepting of life as it is, as our dogs, right? Jordy, my neighbor’s dog has leukemia and has only a few weeks to live. Yet she still loves to chase rabbits, go for walks, receive a good belly scratch and come to my door for treats. If she’s uncomfortable, she isn’t complaining. She doesn’t resent her owner when he says “no” to more treats, and she could care less that I have a Mezuzah on my doorframe. I’ll never be that comfortable with the here and now. We humans are works in progress. Perfection is the enemy of love. I wish I could help my precious granddaughter understand this [...]
A Contemplation for Comfort
A Contemplation for Comfort. Each morning, the Daily Meditation from Richard Rohr, Founder of the Center for Action and Contemplation arrives in my inbox. Recently, this paragraph moved me: Ultimately, we do not earn or find God. We just get ourselves out of the way. We let go of illusions and the preoccupations of our smaller selves. As the cheap scaffolding falls away, the soul stands revealed. The soul, or True Self, cannot be created or achieved by our work. It just is, and it is already. The soul is God’s “I AM” continued in me. “The Soul is God’s I AM continued in me.” Dear Ones, Whether you’re an agnostic, atheist, or a believer, the physicists tell us that we are all [...]
Facing What Is.
Facing what is. We can back away from the world, both our own personal dilemmas and the times we live in. But when we face them with presence, we can use these very same troubles as a pathway into a deeper connection to Self, to the place within us where we are deeply connected to each other and to the energy of the universe. I really do mean “the universe,” because if the physicists are right about the Big Bang, we are all the stardust of those first atoms. This chaotic world--with myriad crises and uncertainties, seems nonstop. This fog of collective unease, underlying our constant pressures and priorities is exhausting. Yet, when I was asked to write about releasing dread, I [...]